Laura

Well here I go. I guess I will be going to the lawyer Friday. Tomorrow I have to get stubs and all addresses of creditors. I’m really sad about all this. I took the means test and it looks like I don’t qualify for chapter 7. If the analyzer was correct I’ll be out 117-120 a month. Blah.

Well I had a major diabetic crisis called ketoacidosis. Lots of draining drama and I don’t want to really belabor that, but throughout I continued to work out. Today I’ve been just a bit sad. I started to think about surgery I would need to remove excess skin and my age…but I can’t get into that pattern first things first. Getting healthy…this is the goal now.

I have decided to keep it simple. I have a sweet itsy bitsy Cocker Spaniel named, Shyly. I decided that she and I would go on three 20 minute walks a day, drink 64 oz of purified water, and that I would go low carb. This is the foundation of my self care as I walk away from obesity and diabetes. I have done pretty well. Yesterday Shy and I got 2 20 minute walks in and almost 64 oz of water. Today she and I got only 1 walk in but we extended it to 35 minutes. I had an evening out which lasted much longer than I anticipated. I’m just doing it…not pressuring myself. I won’t beat myself up for what I don’t get done only affirm what I do.

I am also doing some intense visualization. I spend a lot of time daydreaming about how I will look, feel, live, and love as person who is healthy physically and loves herself and others. I’m so grateful to have the summer to do this… I’ve needed it for so long.