sortingoutmylife

2nd week weight in…lost 3.5lbs

ok, since I last wrote this I have turned a bit of a corner….last Monday I went back on weight watchers online and did really well last week. Didnt binge once. We had 2 meals out and I chose carefully-fish dishes and no dessert. Really proud of myself. And I feel fine, feel more in control. Anyway the only down side (although to be honest its not bothering me too much) is that my scales at home have gone a bit haywire and everytime I stand on them get a different reading. So I bought a new set and was upset to find my scales are about 6lbs out. So I am 6lbs heavier than I thought I was. Nevermind tho, at least I know they are right now. I estimate I lost about 4lbs this week but I’ll never know for sure but I am quite positive about this week ahead.

I know all the science, mentally I can talk myself into it-I feel I have reached rock bottom at the moment-yet I am still sat at my desk writing this with a huge bag of jelly sweets and have just eaten an entire packet of chocolate biscuits.
I have an entire wardrobe of beautiful clothes I cannot fit into-all brand new, still with tags on. I have to make a decision-do I continue like this and basically just throw away all the clothes and accept defeat or do I finally grow up and stop being so stupid and get the control back…..I need to gro up and decide whats important to me….is it to control it or is it let in control me which is what I am doing now. But, if I know all this, then why cant I physically do it?