Despite my desire to keep some sort of pregnancy journal, I’ve not really done much of this. Mainly due to tiredness and quite a few issues throughout.
Now I’m in the final stretch, so to speak, with less than 3 weeks left to the EDD of 15th July 2013.
Having been classed as ‘high-risk’ throughout with the threat of being induced at 38 weeks to prevent still birth (cholestastis), as well as losing 2 stone in 2 weeks in the 1st trimester due to extreme sickness (HG) & being on a hospital drip for 5 days to take my body from severe dehydration to normal levels again…. yes..despite all of this.. I am now classed as low-risk. which means no induction, the medical team have lifted the early diagnosis of cholastasis, even they are not sure I even had it! (Thank God)
I was recently accepted at the midwife led birth centre for a water birth too. This was all a no go with all the problems, but yet in the final hour, its become an option for me. I realise that anything can happen at any time to remove this option but at least I have the option.
After having a mini tour of the birth centre, it’s just what I need to have that relaxing, soothing peaceful atmosphere. Dim lighting, not clinical like the delivery suite at all.
I have not had much support around me and despite all the health issues have had to manage by myself for the most part. I dont have much family, no parents, and the family members I do have are a little bit useless really. I have a couple of friends that have helped here and there and also my partner has been supportive, but only when he’s here. Which hasnt been often enough. He lives over 100 miles away and doesnt have a car at the moment so have only had him here about 2 days a month on average.
It’s been hard and I still have a way to go, but this little baby is relying on me and I’m also relying on her to some degree.
Only yesterday I had some severe debilitating sciatic nerve pain hit me as I was walking down the stairs with my washing, everything got dropped and I couldnt move, not even a single step,all I could do was cry and swear. The pain is indescribable when it hits. This is something I do not need, especially at this stage near to labour.
Can’t say I’m looking forward to the labour, it’s the unexpected pain factor. But all I can think is, it’s going to be an experience I have to go through. There will be a lovely little baby waiting to see me at the end of it. I just pray the labour is swift and I’m able to manage the pain as best as I can, and as natural as I can. IJN