Now I just have to conjure up 300 bucks and sign the lease on Tuesday.
sparklysquirrel's Life List
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1. gauge my ears
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2. get car insurance
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3. exercise at least three times a week
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4. have normal sleep hours
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5. de-clutter my house and my life
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6. Finish that PBF drawing. (paint it or whatever)
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7. become self-sufficient
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8. Find a balance between the things I want to do and the things I need to do
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9. stop procrastinating at least once a day
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10. find a job that doesn't feel like a job
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11. Become financially responsible
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12. get a dog
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13. Discover secret coves of wholesome fun in Seattle.
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14. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
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15. visit the 7 natural wonders of the world
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16. fall asleep outside watching the stars with someone i care about
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17. Read "The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy"
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18. see the northern lights
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19. Knit a Harry Potter scarf
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20. forget the past, live in the present and smile when thinking of the future
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21. decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life
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22. Start and finish my first knitted garnment
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23. Visit Japan and buy all sorts of knick-knacks
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24. finish more knitting projects
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25. look good naked
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26. Have more confidence(in everything)
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27. Get a tattoo that I can always be proud of
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28. document one whole day of my life in photographs
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29. be beautiful without makeup
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30. Submit my writing somewhere and receive a rejection letter (which I will then get framed and hang on my wall)
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31. survive a zombie outbreak
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32. Go camping for the first time
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33. buy my mom a house
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34. transform my room into an inspiring, colourful wonderland
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35. Meet the Flight of the Conchords
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36. Finish knitting the gloves
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37. get a full-time job
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38. write to my grandma
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How I did it: sex, no drugs, lots of rock n roll and dancing in my room late at night, stress, depression, broken heart, going out with friends, and not eating very much. Read how I did it…
How I did it: He crushed me into him and kissed me hard, while the rain poured down on us, as we waited for his friend to come fix my car. The kiss went on for a while and it was lovely. He's a dork and said "heh, we kissed in the rain." Read how I did it…
How I did it: I went to PP and they gave me a lady's health exam, checked out my business, then gave me BC. I started it today 'cause my period came and yaaaaay! It was free. Read how I did it…
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My life has slowly beem deteriorating, as if it were left soaking in lemonade.
I fucked up and almost killed my car yesterday, then had to pay close to $400 to get her running again. That’s money I had saved for my apartment. I’m not exactly sure if I’m even going to get the apartment. I have to be out by the end of the month, so I’m kind of fucked if I don’t get it.
Romantically, things have also been fucked. I got dumped twice, then he came back a third time with a will to change and I turned him away to focus on his own bullshit, while I focus on mine. We’re suppose to meet up again in July, but I have a feeling he’s not going to give a shit and just forget about me, which really hurts but… whatever.
Workwise, I got promoted to management, then they cut my hours down extremely. Also, the Sam’s Club job I applied for didn’t go through ‘cause they’re in a hiring freeze. I was really hoping to get that so I could quit Party City.
Everything’s pretty much been falling apart lately. Not only are my hope and heart lying in shredded dismay on the floor, but the rest of my body is slowly giving up on me. My stomach freaks out whenever I eat, my head won’t stop killing me, and my ankle is sprained and swollen like a motherfucker, but I keep working on it ‘cause there’s no other way around it.
I’m scared.
Will July be better?
Will things actually start falling into place?
Will our love surely grow?
Am I going to lose complete hope?
Is my family going to be understanding?
Are my prayers being heard?
Seriously, fuck shit. Fuck it all.
...and why would I wait ‘til you swear to stay when you left yesterday?...
i put down the downpayment, now i just need to get my mom on as co-signer. i pray they give it to me.



