I'm doing 42 things
Of everything I possibly felt during our course, I couldn’t understand what I did or what went wrong. I have many flaws but no flaw that could be denied a chance. I begged to have him back and he simply said that he never wanted to be with me, he never loved me and that he never would want to end up with me. It is beyond hurtful what he said, and it resonates in my mind. I have done my share of mistakes, but I think that him leaving me and making me feel less than what a human being should be treated like is a far worse mistake than anyone has ever made. Im only 22, but the creases on my face and the sorrow in the corners of my smile are proof that in my 22 years I have lived a very tulmultous life. I had plans, plans that every girl dreams of. He was my prince charming, and at the end I felt like a forgotten character in a fairy tale.
specialk85's Life List
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1. be a fitness instructor.
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2. learn how to drive
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3. make it on my own.
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4. go skinny dipping.
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5. have a mom and pop bakery.
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6. get a masters degree.
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7. have a great job.
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8. be a doctor of medicine.
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9. travel the world with someone I love.
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10. dance like Ciara.
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11. have a detailed scrapbook of my life
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12. Write a book.
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13. visit New Guinea.
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14. tell lazy people to get off thier butts and do something about thier situation.
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15. have a baby boy.
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16. be an actress.
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17. climb the Chichen Itza in a white sheer dress and blow a sea shell to summon the gods.
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18. be a photographer.
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19. be a dancer.
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20. have no debt.
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21. be a model.
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22. graduate from the University of Texas at Austin.
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23. walk into a room and have all the men stare.
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24. study plants in the Amazon forest.
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25. wake up to the same person for the rest of my life.
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26. be successful.
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27. learn Spanish and French.
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28. come out on a huge billboard in Houston.
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29. never have to worry about money.
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30. own a 200 acre ranch in Texas.
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31. live forever.
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32. get braces.
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33. understand why Jairo is how he is.
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34. be able to trust again.
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35. be single for at least 6 months.
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36. not ever talk to my ex again.
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37. have known what my baby would have looked like.
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38. meet Rob Lowe and admire his hotness.
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39. sing in a karaoke bar
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40. spend more time with my Welita
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41. write all my recipes down for my grandchildren.
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42. own a sushi bar/mexican restaurant
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I need a sign or a symbol something. I know that he is the one. I know it. Every little thing that he does, there is not one thing I can live without. From the foods he loves to what he plans for in the future…I never get one hint that Im his missing piece. I need something to know for sure.
All my life my parents have given everything I needed. I saw them struggle over money issues, and sacrifice alot of thier luxuries and own necessities for my sister and I. Although they tried to hide those times when money was tight, I still saw how much it afffected the relationship between my dad and mom. Now, they are fine, but its the future of my own kids that I worry about. I want for them to never have to worry, not be spoiled albeit, but never have to wonder if mommy and daddy are fighting over money.
