i hate this world. and everyone in it. i have no goals. i want to die. in this place this world that is supposed to make you feel happy. i cant feel my arms any more since ive cut so much. i have huge throbbing scars. on my wrists and higher. i feel there is no way to get out of depression. my meds are doubled. it only makes me more weaker. i cant look in my boyfreinds eyes anymore. since i pushed him out of my life. i hate me and this world. thats why tonite might be the night.
Jul 21, 2005, 03:30PM PDT | 1 comment
i want to be happy more than anything in this world. i live long restless days. passing people by in the city. wondering if any one ever cares about me. its a big black hole i have to get threw every day. im on medication. for my depression. and my rage black-outs. but its all good somtimes. my therapist says i should let people in. she says i pushed people out like my mom, my best friend, and my boyfriend. but thats stupid. i dont try to. it just finds a way.
Jul 11, 2005, 12:48PM PDT | 1 cheer | 1 comment
its so hard to find a guy who you can really depend on.
Jul 05, 2005, 01:01PM PDT | 1 comment
I'm doing 43 things
