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I have recently, ticked off “fall in love” from my things to do.
I feel so deeply lucky to have met my Boyfriend.
When I look into his eye’s I feel like I am on drugs.
I know he loves me, and we feel the same way about each other.
I feel I have met the man I am going to marry and spend the rest of my life with.
But I have issues, I have had many past relationships be unfaithful to me.
And I really fear losing him. that he will lie to me, that he will cheat on me.
I get jealous when he talks to his female friends.
He does not know I feel this way, as I know it is me being silly, but the fear is the most awful feeling.
I want to trust him and feel comfortable when we are apart.
right now I oppress my worries but ultimately I want them gone.
But don’t know where to start.
out of all the relationships I have ever had, I never knew if it was love…
Now I know we are in Love.
How things change so quickly..
So my last entry was about a nice guy, who had a girlfriend, Well I met his friend, and it was instant Friends, and now we are seeing each other.
It is unusual for me to feel so comfortable so quickly.
i feel I can tick this one off… I’m in love
Thinking of buying in Melbourne while I am living in the UK, and renting it out, so when I return back to that side of the world I have a piece a something to go back to.
I think my biggest trouble is my reading music.
I have purchased a special Casio keyboard that you can input midi files into and they keys light up, so you can learn tunes quickly..
I think this is good solution to help me gain confidence, which I still try and learn to read,
I need to ask my employer if he can be my Witness and ask my Dad’s work colleague if he can be my referee.
And get my photo’s taken… I think This should be in the post monday.
I lost some of my Uni work that I wanted to put on my portfolio. My hard drive on my old laptop died, and I am sure I had a copy on CD. last night I turned my house upside down looking for it. I found lots of unlabeled Cd’s but none of them were the right one’s.
I am so annoyed at my self for being more organised and tidy. I could have backed up my computer before it died. I could have labeled my CD’s and kept them on a shelve… Instead I just have boxes of rubble.
Need to sort it out!
I watch my calories but I haven’t been watching my fat intake. So now I am only eating things with low fat’s..
If I don’t know… I wont eat it.
does anyone know how much fat (in grams) your maximum daily intake should be?
I realise I was very stressed the last couple of weeks, i went to class on Saturday and all went well..
Still quiet nervous singing in front of others… but even the tutor said I had improved.
A friend of mines cousin, is starting a covers band and wants me to sing with them… I said Yes… haven’t practiced yet.
singing and writing has taken over from just playing the keyboard…today I am taking the time to just play.
BUT he is already taken.
Oh well we are great friends and I am happy I have him in my life.
There will be someone out there who is Single and just as lovely… but where?
Decided not to go this week, I feel that the songs we are singing are above my range and trying to sing them is putting stress on my throat.
I have had a sore throat all this week and don’t want to strain my voice before my radio show tomorrow.
I will have to go back to class next week, as I have paid for the whole course.. so I will have to get better this week.
I’m going all hippy in my approach and have purchased a singing hypnosis CD from http://www.singinghypnotherapy.com/
I am looking into the alexander technique for singing.
And are going to do yoga EVERYDAY!!
I will not be defeated
So I started my daytime course yesterday (saturday)
and today I feel terrible.
I had never sung infront of anyone other than my singing tutor, and to sing in front of five other people made me sooooo nervous… my hands were shaking, and my voice was shaking and quavering.
the course was from 11am – 6pm and by the end of the day I couldn’t sing, I was exhausted, embarrsed and my throat hurt.
I felt I had taken 3 big steps backward..
So in 6 months I have come a long way!!
My range has increased and there is no longer breaks in my voice. I feel very confident and are starting my Group singing class this Saturday…
Can’t wait.
