starry

Well, I have been going strong for a total of 2 whole weeks and true to my usual form I feel ready to give up. Went to the city today to check out an exibition and cannot even begin to describe how fat and daggy and out of place I felt. I feel so embarrassed to be in my skin. Shit, why do I feel so bad about myself. I am trying with all of my might to perservere and keep eating ok and exercising as i know if I go back to my old habits I will only feel a hundred times worse. I will try to go to a yoga class or cardio boxing class this week to add some variety to my exercise. All I want is to be able to look in the mirror and not think I look completely ugly.

I hate cleaning with a passion and would like to get to the stage where things are semi clean so I don’t have to spend hours cleaning it all in one go or dread the thought of someone popping over. So far have managed to put the dishes in the dishwasher for the last few days and cleaned the shower while I was having one – hey, I figure I’m killing two birds with one stone

I used to wear some pretty nice underwear and now my collection consists on bonds boy leg hipsters and sports bras. Though very functional and comfy they don’t really lend themselves to romantic moments with my man.