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I try to pretend to be the cool girlfriend that allows him to go round to friends houses that are girls and doesn’t care that he took other girls in his car but its not working. I didnt ever have these issues before so me having them now, in this relationship is really confusing to me. I just do not want any other girl near him. He doesn’t really notice when im jealous because i try so hard to hide it and act all moody instead of admitting what is truly bothering me. Like today i was walking back home and he was waiting for me outside my house across the road. He was talking on the phone and i know that it was a girl because of the way he was talking. He stayed on the otherside of the road until he finished his conversation and then came bounding over to me trying to act all normal. I instantly became jealous and went into a mood, we havernt spoken properly since, so for about 4 hours. Its my issue i know but he should try harder to get me.

I feel like he doesn’t appreciate me and takes me for granted so i get angry and cant express myself to him because he doesnt seem to understand what he does. As i cant communicate with him about these issues, my anger builds up and i take it out on him by either snapping, being moody, sulking, any sort of negative behaviour that i think will affect him. I do these things and he doesnt understand why, he asks me what is wrong and do the typical female thing and act as if im ok. This frustrates him because clearly something is wrong, he then begins to sulk and i end up feeling guilty and trying to make up with him.
I know the only way we can sort this is by talking but it just seems to me that he twists everything to make it sound like the situation is better than it actually is or makes me seem like i am overeacting.
I dont know how this can be fixed, i am moody and sometimes have no reason to be so but still end up taking out how i feel on him. Its totally unfair and i would like to change but realistically know that it will take a lot more than a couple of conversations.
Maybe its a graudual thing, or maybe me and him are not meant to be together like that. I am so confused, if it cannot be fixed within the next 3 months then i think i will have to give it up, because we only just started going out and this should be the honeymoon period. I’ll have to wait and see.

One day i will succeed in this…i will look in the mirror and think wow o wow what glowing skin i have. I am going to try drinkin lots and lots of water apparently that helps but if anyone has anything that will help like home rememdies and that such as honey and avocado face packs..or like steaming your face every other day… i would be very grateful if you could let me know. Until then i look forward to the glowing skin days…Be blase …..