*estrellas en sus ojos*

I didn’t get the scholarship, but I got a job on a cruise ship instead. On Sunday, I start a 4-month loop from L.A. along the western side of Mexico (Mexican Riviera). It’s not my first choice but oh, well.

If I choose to keep doing cruises after that, I’d do Europe in the summer time (maybe) and South America and Australia in the winter.

oh my god will this ever happen?? I still have an irrational fear of even smiling at guys, ugh, I am so frustrated with myself.

aaaaand I’m 24. Ugh.

EDIT:
It happened when I was 25! Yay! .... and 46 times after that, hee hee.

After an awesome interview, I was told a few days later that I didn’t get the scholarship. I was SO ANGRY because I’d spent literally hundreds of hours preparing… basically every free second of the day went toward this enterprise.

I felt so desolate because I just wanted out of my job and this was an escape route.

Something else came along, although it’s a lot more uncertain than the Rotary thing. Australia and the U.S. just signed a Working Holiday Visa agreement this month, which means that if my visa request is approved (and it should be), I can spend 12 months in Australia. Since I was aiming for Melbourne in the interview, I’ve decided to start there. Not sure when this will happen, but I’m aiming for a quit date of Feb. 1.