steph82

didn’t take that long, just a few tries at it really. i’m becoming pretty good, even if i don’t always use them properly :P

It will be 4 weeks today since I heard those horrible words: “Right now I do not wish to be your friend”. I have suffered through extreme emotional abuse as a child, but I don’t think the pain of that even comes close in comparison to the pain of someone you adore with all your heart and thought you’d always be close with telling you they no longer wish to be your friend. I don’t know what to do. I have gone from extremely sad to extremely angry. I want to understand why he did this. I want to ask a million questions. But what does it matter? Right now he feels he can’t have me in his life, I suppose the bottom line of importance is that I respect that. It’s so hard though. I also know I contributed to this a lot even if his negative feelings towards me didn’t manifest for some time. I need to work on myself, and then hopefully I will never cause another friend the sort of pain I caused my former best friend.

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Last week my former best-friend decided he couldn’t be friends with me at all anymore.. We have fought a lot over the past year, but had taken a couple months break from each other, but after the break I did something to violate his trust, and he decided enough is enough.. I’m heart broken right now. I’ve lived in so much pain over the past few years and he was always there for me, but now I’ve driven him away. I can only hope that one day I can rekindle this friendship.