stopcutting14

I’m starting to finally write better poetry… here is one of my newest ones it’s called “what am i to do?”

What am i to do when my face is wet from tears
and my arm is covered in blood
how should i feel when u tell me you leaving?
You say things will be ok when i know they won’t
you said you’d never leave me and now you are
how do you fix a broken heart that wants to die?
how can you say you love me?
when your not here to wipe my tears away
i cry on the inside-n-out
because i can’t hold hold it in anymore
once again that dark place is calling
how can you blame me for wanting to end my pain?
you know how it feels to have peace
i want to go to sleep
an everlasting sleep
and so i will
take the bottle-n-lay down
in thoughts of you i will drown
worsr of all they won’t know why but you will
for everything i love you and say good-bye

i go to the gym like every once in a while whenever my mom goes which we haven’t in over a year and my mom is just wasting money…..but i need to lose weight…..i am overweight even though i don’t look like it….

i’ve been high like everynight for the past week i need to stop cuz i’m afraid my parents are gonna give me a drug test soon and i’m gonna fail and then i’ll really be sent away this time