strangerme

im in my second year of college studying graphic design.

i was broken up with. he didnt want me anymore. it hurt and i still hurt. but now its different. im not mad at him. he is confused and i need to give him time. i want him to be sure he wants to be with him. ive talked to him some and we have met a few times. the first time was hard. i cried in the bathroom. i sent him an email the next day. he replied by saying he thought it was understood that we were just friends and how he wasnt ready to be in a relationship with me. im broken again. there was a time when i felt fixed, i felt better. but im back again. maybe it has to do with him contacting me, but its better this way. at least i know. he said he would call this week and we would go get some food. i cannot wait. he keeps me waiting all the time. he still loves me and i know he misses me. he is in a weird place and i hope he figures out what he wants. i cant stay like this much longer.

im in a weird place where its almost a need to make friends or else i will be in misery. im working on it. seriously.