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is interesting. its really really interesting how much i over-eat/over consume. like… why do i think that i need more? oh. oh wait. because i have this fear that i will not be provided for.

faith.

yes, faith is the answer.

I am choosing to go without for forty days. without extra food. without extra stuff. without the label of a certain coffee shop.

there are people in the world that do not have food, that do not have water.

i will pray for them, when i do consume.

i will ask myself, “what am i really hungry for, right now?”

I have gotten input on what Lent means to many different people. Some UUs, some Catholics, some liberal Christians… and on and on. They told me about what they believe to be the meaning, the story, the point.

One friend said, choose one thing that you are going to give up, but don’t make it selfish. For instance, don’t say that you’re giving up donuts if you really just want to lose weight.

My memory says that in one book, Jesus was in a desert, and the devil tempted him with food, then with power, then with vainity. And in all cases, Jesus kept true to his belief, his God. And then faith saw him through.

my devils tempt me with those things, too. my devils tempt me with anything and everything around me.

I pray for renewed strength, energy, momentum, courage, and serenity.
Namaste

if i miss another day, i’ll get fired.
i feel sick.
i don’t want to be here.
wah.