suianna

21 years may seem longg but i have only been alive for 22 years and i didnt date for 20 years of my life haha so i did only spend a year and a bit searching for this guy whilst being dating-active =D
and boyyy am i happy to have found him ^^

since being a verryy skinny teenager i was always called ‘stick’, ‘anorexic’ and i hated being so skinny so i proceeded with my goal of putting on weight
that took a good few years for me to reach my desired weight of about 8stones
but then i didnt stop putting on weight and reached 9stones
and now i really want to lose the weight again and just stay at 8 stones… but its soo hard to lose weight once u’ve put it on.. and i love food too much and i dont even exercise.. sighs*
but i do make effort to eat low calorie food all the time, so hopefully some time soon, ill go to the gym and really work off those calories >__<

I have been going out with my beloved boyfriend for almost 10months now and i still haven’t told my parents…
my parents are stricter than typical Chinese parents and have been very over protective since i was a child
once i hit university i began discovering how fun it was to socialise, have loads of mates especially guy ones and go out late clubbing etc
my parents really didnt like this change in me and constantly lectured me on how bad i’ve become, i was stuck in between pleasing them, pleasing my friends and finding my own balance for almost 2 years
its the final year of uni and i’ve finally found the one person i’ve been searching for my whole life, i’ve gone from being a young naive girl who has never dated in her teenage years to being a in a serious and loving relationship… and my parents still have no clue what is going on
although they have asked me many a times – have i got a boyfriend, and they have always been suspicious, leading to them snooping around, and asking other people about me.
i used to hate that, and guard my secrets ever more fiercely… because once they know, there is no going back.
They will poke their noses into my business, nag me, ask too many questions about him, i knew that was the path i did not want to take until it really had to come to it
My boyfriend’s parents met me when we were 3months in, and i had always felt bad that he let his parents know but i hadn’t yet.
Although he’s really understanding and is always telling me to take my time.
But as of late.. because of the love i have for my boyfriend and my urge to just share the happiness with everyone close to me… i want to tell my parents and i think i will do it at the very next oppurtunity… which may be tomorrow…
i will be very nervous as this is my biggest kept secret of my life about to be split with no going back… i just hope this is the right decision…