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i feel like i’ll look gross if i smile in front of general public, in a class full of people, people i’ll end up seeing everyday, etc because of my teeth .. its not that bad .. just overbite and buck teeth ;;; but still very conscious of it (plus my uneven skin, acne, etc)

but its okay around close friends because it will be natural
we’ll even camwhore and i wouldn’t feel ashamed around them haha

around other people, i’m afraid i might end looking creepy because .. yeah when i tense up my face and smile it looks really awkward orz

the thing is i’m worried when people see a change .. like how did this gloomy looking person start smiling so much. it would be a very extreme contrast … i wouldn’t know how to react if someone said it to my face and i overheard it … i would then probably go back to the original gloomy state (>A<)

I actually took a semester long course this year and it was really fun! There a still quite a lot of lessons in the book that we haven’t done yet, so I’m going to try and self learn more through that. I’ve also got the book “Remembering the Kanji” ordered and hopefully I can learn the kanji quickly as well. I’ve downloaded the sample and it was really helpful. I can say I have retained the kanji that I have learned so far because of all the stories that go along with each character. It actually makes it pretty fun to learn, when before I was very intimidated about learning the characters.

Seriously, everyone I highly recommend that book! It makes learning even 30 kanji a day pretty easy, as long as you keep reviewing them. Though I’m delaying my learning for now until I finished university for the year. But I guess I’ve got the 90 I learned ingrained in my head.

I’ve also been using the website smart.fm to help me learn more vocabulary. I hope that eventually I will be able to read a children’s book at least! XD

I’ve read the recent entry about this goal and I think I had the same problem. I was surrounded by other people who also complained a lot, so once I said something about solving the problem instead of complaining but that suggestion was immediately swapped for another complaint. Suppose complaining is a way to direct the blame on anything but yourself kinda thing?

I don’t know if I can do this entirely – its just one of those things that people all do without even knowing sometimes. So I will try to “stop complaining so much”

Then I realise that a lot of conversations especially at work and school start from complaining…

“Argh, this homework sucks!”
or
“Man, I can’t stand this horrible weather!”