sunny2399

I believe that I’m going through a change in my life where i feel like i dont believe in myself and that everything I do I will mess up…...I know I’m creative and talented in everything I do but….Sometimes I feel hopeless like I dont matter I’m not suicidal just need to be able to find that one thing that makes me ME!! and not let others influence my decisions….damn I’m rambling…

Well I’ve noticed lately that I’m always trying to cater to someone elses needs and not think about my own….I love my son to death but I tend to always think I need someone else in my life to fill my void of unhappiness….I want to learn how to be happy with who I am and realize that I dont need anyone else except family to be happy….I want for once in my life not to have to defend myself against people who want to call me a liar to my face when I dont have any reason to lie to anyone….I want to be happy with me MEKA first before I open up my heart to anyone else….I want to know how to get started and what I need to do to find this happiness…..