Ive pretty much not dyed my hair now for a while, its good for my hair but looking a bit strange…
OK this is going really well, went to Nottingham for the meeting last week and eveyone is super-lovely and its all very encouraging.
Ive been feeling terrible the last couple of weeks and it messed with me head to sit in a room with people who know exactly how I feel. Its given me a proper hope and now im really determined to get this group started so that other people can have that support cause it changed my whole perception of it all. I think Ive been in denial for the past 3 years since I was diagnosed and its only now really that im living in my own place and seeing how pissed off my man gets with me cause I never say how I feel and how everything has got really hard again and i dont wanna get outta bed cause i hurt blah blah blah its kinda hit home a little. Ok a lot.
but its gonne be ok. mainly because it needs to be I think.
If any one else out there has Fibromyalgia please get in touch, the more the merrier-quite litterally :)
I am smug. This week I have had many vegetables. and only one bit of cake :) swede is some good sh*t :)
Right people this is really happening! I will get my course funded for this year so I can actually do it. Like really do it. Im soooooooooooooooooo excited! YAY! roll on Feb 09 I cant wait. Ive spent 8 years messing about trying different stuff and now i get to actually do what I KNOW i want to :) Hurray!
Hey people, I’d like to meet you. All of you. People really interest me. I love people, even the horrible ones are interesting in their own way. Im fairly sure we would all get along a bit better if only we actually spoke to each other! How many times do you see the same people every day, on the bus, in a shop, walking to work and never ever speak? exactly…you never know we could be really great friends :)
My hair is reddy-brown naturally, its been black, purple, red, blonde, pink, blue, orange, black again, natural for a bit and then black again. Now Im fed up with black, my hair is really fine, so i want to stop damaging it and using horrible chemicals.
Plus I quite like my natural colour, I think i was just bored….
I went back to college for maths evening classes for a few months and then took my exam and got a C grade which was better than i got at school!! Hurrah! This means that now I can apply for my degree and am one step closer to becoming a teacher :) I was so happy I cried on the examiner, I think he was really quite scared!
I had a horrible horrible experience. And ive seen what a mess my ‘friends’ are. its not cool. People I know take drugs like I drink tea, dead casual. Something changed in me when I saw that drugs trial on the news, the one that went wrong and those poor people nearly died when their heads swelled up. Thats prescription drugs so god only knows what what is in all that other stuff people take. People I know act like proper losers when they are high, Ive lost friends because of it, Ive seen people go nuts and end up in hospital and metal hopsitals because of drugs. Im not ever gonna go there again.
Ok so this is going really well. I am going to a conference thing soon with other group leaders and im really looking forward to it. Yay to me.
Right, major kick up the ass here. had my first ever migraine at the weekend and still feeling awful now, more medication, more pain and frighteningly i could have had a stroke. So, now im going to re-work everything.
Im not smoking again. this weekend has scared the shit outta me. I dont wanna die. end of. I had bronchitis as a child, thats why i couldnt breathe that night when i woke up and silently screamed till my dad ran in and saved me. I dont ever wanna feel like this again. get a f*cking grip.
ok so this isnt going too well. im smoking less, which is good…..by less i mean way less. so its a glass half full not half empty view im gonna take on this one.
This is definately one of those ‘things to do before you die’ things.
Id do anything, work in some crap shop forever if i could live by the sea. So i could see the waves when its stormy and eat seaside fish and chips, well chips sometimes. Jerry could be a seaside cat. It could rain and i wouldnt care cause it would look lovely. And there would be ice cream shops and kids in their wellies and macs. Yeah ok, i know exactly where I want to live.
Right, i suffer from fibromyalgia, if youre not sure what that is google it! not many people know. I would really like to meet other people with the condition so that we can moan about it and discuss how crap it can be and come up with things to make it slightly more bearable. There doesnt seem to be one im my area so im going to try and start one. this kinda depends on how many people in my part of the world have this condition, so fingers crossed!
i keep talking to my friend lynda about playing rugby but i think i’ll hurt myself as im not really put together very well. Still being considered this one….
ive quit smoking.again.for real. so thats good. 3 days so far. 3 i hear you say?! better then smoking. cheer me its hard work!!
i share my house with a kitten called jerry and a chinchilla and 2 goldfish. ok so not a dog but i love them all to death :) ive taken to watching dog webcams. sad but cute. check out layla pugs web cam, go on, google layla pug she rocks.
ive applied to start a degree course in january, im waiting to hear if i qualify for and financial support, fingers crossed. Its the first and vital step. 3 years working towards my degree then i need to do a teaching qualification. i really want to do this. so i am.
Ive actually done this! im am much happier now. I changed my job for a far better one which i love, i now work in an opticians with lovely people and i get to actually use my brain. I get one day off each week along with every other weekend. Its brilliant. Im much calmer, my relationship isn’t suffering anymore and i get more rest which is important as sometimes im quite ill.
Change your jobs people it will totally change your life!!
right. day 3 of this epic task. ive done it before, done it and screwed it up but this time its going to be different. Im trying really hard to not do it. its pointless, damages my health i hate it. so im not going to do it. for real.
Ive been doing a lot of thinking about this one, when i was born i was a blank canvas and doing stupid stuff like smoking and eating crap is just damaging me, so im not doing it any more. end of.
