- Clean my room
- Finish project
- Clean bathroom
and I don’t know how to bring myself back up.
but than I just sort of stopped. I want to start again.. I’ll start today by writing down my dreams from last night.
Not bad, not good either. An improvement though! For the past week the only exercise I have had is DDR. Very minimal amounts too. It felt so good to go and get fresh air ! Ah, I need to do this more often. I love bike rides in the evening.
but I don’t think I took the time to actually appreciate each one as I wrote it. I just sort of wrote a list to say I’ve done it. This time, I want to make each thing it’s own entry so I can write about why I like it and include pictures. I think it’ll let me appreciate it more. Which is sort of the point, isn’t it?
I’m sure there’s more, but I just don’t want to finish
the list right now. Procrastination? Yes.
I totally forgot about going to library yesterday. And exercise? Totally didn’t happen.
and sort of noticed how many symptoms I have of social anxiety. I rather be alone most of the time, I get nervous talking to strangers, my heart beats really fast whenever the phone rings, I blush easily, I avoid social contact, and I hate answering the door.
Although it may not be as severe as other people may have it, I really would like to put an end to it before it gets any worse. I’m entering a new school this month and it’s going to be difficult for me. I’m going to have to push myself hard to get out there and be social and make friends.
My goal is by February (6 months), the symptoms I listed will be gone, or at least very minimal.
and it’s not a problem for me to finish a book in a period of time. Heck, most of the time I rather be in bed with my cats reading a good book. The only problem is actually getting to the library and getting the books I want to read. I’m not sure why, but the library makes me feel anxious. Maybe because it’s so quiet? I don’t know.
and I still don’t have a job. However, my friends have started getting jobs and telling me how much cash they have, and it really motivated me to go out there and apply.
Although, I don’t want it to interfere with my school work.
since I’m too young to even get my license yet. I’ve always thought that once I graduate in the summer I will do this. I most likely won’t end up doing it, but it’s still something to look forward to.
would be such an accomplishment. Not just knowing the basics, but knowing how to speak it fluently and not even think of what a word means. I only know the basics so far, but I’m in high school so I will learn French there. I’m going to try extra hard to pay attention in class and study.
having what you want, it’s wanting what you have.
I tend to always look for the negatives in my life and try to improve them, and once I have improved it, I look for something else to improve. I think life is more just being happy with what you have and appreciating it.
I always put it off. I need to start making it a priority.