sweeet26sarah

I hope you have a wonderful birthday.

Apparently, I complain alot. I was told tonight by my boyfriend that the only thing I do is complain about our relationship. I dont want to be like that and I really didnt realize I was doing that. I use to be a very positive person but now its like I find the bad in everything. I dont know how to stop doing that. Anyone have any advice on how to start looking for good instead of bad??? Thanks

to tell the people closest to me how I feel about them. I dont want anything to be left unsaid. My father died 5 years ago this month. I was only 22 years old. There was so much I never got to say to him and there are so many regrets that I have now of things that I thought about after he died. Things I said or did. When I was a teenager I must have put my parents through hell. I didnt realize it then because when your a teenager you think you know everything. Before my dad died he told me how proud he was of me for things that I overcame or things I was doing to better my life. Im glad for that cause he helped out alot. I was close to my dad and I am close to my mom. I never realized I was as fortunate as I was until I grew up and realized how screwed up life can really be. I mean when I was a kid I didnt realize that other kids were coming from broken families or being abused or anything like that. I guess I had it in my mind that every family was like mine. I treasure my memories I have of my dad and I could only wish that I would have gotten to know my dad better and understand more things about him. Anyway, I just wanted to write and let everyone know that in my opinion I think its best not to leave anything unsaid. Thanks for listening to me ramble on.