in training!
6 months ago
So i’ve actually found a friend at work who has agreed to tackle my first triathlon with me! And after YEARS of procrastinating this goal, i’m planning on competing in my first this summer. I am very excited, and hope that my training will go as planned, if not better! I am hoping that after this first sprint-tri, i’ll keep training and pursue bigger badder tri’s in the near future. this is a lifestyle that i dream of adapting, and wonder if it’s possible for me..
May 16, 03:42PM PDT | 2 cheers | 1 comment
It’s hard to believe, but this has been a disease i’ve struggled with for almost 10 years.. and it’s still a day-by-day challenge. I call myself “recovered” for the most part, going from binge/purging 3-4x a day to now months at a time without doing it. But as there is the saying of old habits dying hard.. well this is one of them. Last night i went out for dinner with my boyfriend and about a dozen other people.. and i just couldn’t stand the feeling of fullness any more and had to make myself get rid of the large dinner i had just consumed. The feeling afterwards was INSTANT reief. It’s really one of the worse feelings ever.. the “in-between” feeling. The feeling of “should i do it or not..” of “am i strong enough to resist this urge or not..” of “have i really come this far just to fall back into the downward spiral again..” of “everything will be okay after you do it..” It’s so hard to describe, but it’s like i’ve lost and the disease has won, and i have no control over it, by the time i’ve gotten up from the table and taken a single step away.. a step towards that instant relief. It had been so long since i’d felt that irreversable urge. I just hope it was one tiny blunder and that it won’t creep it’s way back into my life yet again.
May 16, 03:16PM PDT | 1 comment
so i went skiing once a week this past season, and actually tried boarding one of those weeks. It was painful, and the day we went was miserable and cold, so that just made the experience all that much more not-enjoyable. but i promise myself that i will be back up on the board next season for another shot. (i actually brought my skiis up with me that day and switched half way thru the day cuz i was so frusterated with myself.. maybe one of my 43 things should be “learn to have more patience with myself” haha)
May 16, 02:54PM PDT | 0 comments
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