sweetpeame

I NEED MORE CHEERS!!! please cheer me on beating my depression!!

so this weekend is the first weekend in about 6 weeks that i’m not seeing my boyfriend/unofficial fiance (it gets complicated.) i hope it’s not gonna be too hard. i spent a few hours with this guy from my history discussion watching a movie & hanging out to get my mind off of my bf. i really miss him, but i feel like i should be able to handle ONE weekend without him and be able to maintain my emotions! that’s reasonable, right? yet, i spent about an hour crying in my bed this evening. geez, this is so hard!!! and now i’m thinking about breaking off the unofficial engagement (basically, we haven’t told the parents & he hasn’t officially proposed or gotten the ring yet.) but that’s a little crazy, right? i mean over a silly little thing.

so, basically, i feel like i’m going to be “getting through” this weekend rather than enjoying it. god help me. ugh. why can’t we have a normal relationship???

yay!!! i went to a party and didn’t overeat!!!! i’m so proud of me!!!! => anywho, i’ve decided not to eat after 7:30. i’m trying it the oprah winfrey way. we’ll see what happens…