swim_fan00

I originally found this site while surfing for a site on how to become bulimic or anorexic.

Needless to say i didnt end up following thru with it..

=X

hmm..
some how i find myself in the same place as last time
I weighed myself for the fist time in months today and guess what.

Im still;
70 kgs or 154 lbs
168cm
BMI of; 25

which puts me in the accepble/normal range..
yet i want to be thinner :(

Mind you i havent really been doing anything to make it change. Since i’ve been focussing on my education at the moment.

Ok, so i didnt quite know where to put this entry.
It seems to fit under so many different titles, this one just felt the most right :)

I’ve been corresponding with this guy for about 3.5 years, that is online thru msn, emails, phone, text messaging etc.
Yes before you ask no i had never met him before in my life and NO i didnt met him off some dating site. Its quite embarrassing actually :$ i met him off an online game all those years ago.

Anyway, yes im aware that its dangerous and yada yada but we finally met up last week. (if your reading this please hold the concerns please, i mean come on i put this under “fall in love” so obviously it went more then ok :P )

He lives in the state next to the one im currently residing in. Has a full time job. He isnt a criminal, nor a murderer, nor rapest, and he doesnt want to harm me or do any other nasty stuff to me ever.

Well the first meeting i was soo nervous, i was so worried that he might see me and think that im not what he thought i was or that he didnt feel the same for me once he met me. I mean yes i was also worried that i mightn like him when i finally met him.
Thankfully i was completely mistaken as im so glad to say that i do love him. I’d always had feelings for him but i never though we would ever met.

:) He is everything i thought he was and more. In the next set of school holidays im heading over to see him, so i can meet his friends and family – you know all that jazz.

The best thing is that he loves me for who i am and not for my appearance or because he wants sex (like every other male i seem to come across)

Spending time with him felt like my life was perfect.
Where as seeing him get on the plane, and watching it take off felt like i had been winded. I just sat at the airport for 40 mins after his flight had gone trying not to cry. However i could feel the tears quickly forming in my eyes while he was checking in. I didnt want to upset him or make what was happening any harder so i didnt shed a tear.

Now i just dont feel right with out him, almost as though i cant function with out thinking of him or missing him. Which is oh so painful :(

On the bright side, i finally met the guy i want to spend the rest of my life with and he wants to spend the rest of his life with me as well.

much love
me
<3 s2