symp_girl

One more year to go and i’ll be a real nurse:)
Nursing is tough..takes a lot of dedication and patience…
I like it so much not only because it makes me happy to help people but because of the wide area of study and tasks I do. I do complain how hard the job is and how a nurse have to check every thing …making sure there are no potholes around the system and among the professionals…Hard part is, nobody check ours.. it can be so nerve racking….especially if there is NO ROOM FOR ANY MISTAKES. A mistake could probably harm a patient…
ANyways… to everyone who wants to be a nurse…
SALUT to all of u! :)

No matter what i do, i am still needy… in certain ways…
But i realize one thing…that everyone has its own neediness. The difference is to what extent the neediness is and what type it is.
As for me, it is mainly regarding relationships. I need and want attention a lot. I just love to be treated like a baby…guess because i was never treated to be one. Ive always been this tough daughter that does the right thing every time. I also have this fear of abandonment. I cherish people and i am not use to be left…i was just never used to… guess because of my dad.
I am not sure if there is correlation of my dad leaving us for 14 years to my fear of abandonment.
Whatever it is, i just hope i overcome this needy personality.
But this is what makes me ME and this also what makes me caring to others’ needs…’cos i know what it is like to need some care.

We got back together ! YAY :) he loves me still :)
I realize i did everything iin the list…
although often i am still the BORING GF… why.. cos i dont do crazy stuff or fun stuff.. too lazy.. rather spend my off days working if not sleeping.
I must say i have never been a party girl. I pretend like one.LOL..
I try to have fun once awhile but i am just really a homebody. I love my home and my lil bubble lol. I love my bed especially….my comfort space…
He does get annoyed often me sleeping a lot… since i refuse to take my iron pills every day.
I just often feel bad that the minute i am boring… its like he wants to break up with me as if i didnt made his life full of fun and love most of the time.
I always fear that he would just dump me—- I do things even i dont want to or feel like it because i fear that he will think bad of me or worse think of breaking up with me :(