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Excuse me while I rant for the sake of my sanity.

I received a letter from school claiming that I lack six hours of senior college credit. And, therefore, I can’t graduate. Not that I lack anything that goes toward my degree. Just that I specifically lack hours from this school, which I have never heard about until just now, three months before graduation, when I’m getting all of my graduation information together.

Meanwhile, my advisor, the person who has been signing me up for classes for the past two years and telling me exactly what I need to graduate, has been totally oblivious.
So I email him, as politely as I can explaining the situation.
And his reply was:

Worst case scenario is you have to take summer school.

Excuse me? I don’t get paid to take summer classes. I don’t get paid to drive 100 miles each day to go to summer school. And your school drives me insane, the way it throws money at the business students, neglects upkeep on the liberal arts buildings, where I have to park two miles away and trudge to my classes in 100 degree temperatures, snow, whatever, and its total neglect of the environment. The one that has shootings and knife fights every week. You’re telling me that I have to pay to stay here another semester when you’re responsible for giving me direction, and you’ve been wrongfully telling me these last two years that I shouldn’t take extra classes (which would have been paid for)?

But… ’ no big deal ‘
Oh course I haven’t written him back because I’m going to refrain from flipping him the bird through an email in my emotional state.

I am just hoping for a miracle.
I know it’s not really his fault, but I’m angry.

January 31
Read Bless Me, Ultima under the sun
Organic foods
Hiked 2.5 miles
A dandelion henna tattoo
My favorite blog <3 Galapril

Feb 1
Amazing breakfast and lunch:
granola cereal and almond milk
grapes, provalone, turkey and whole wheat pita, organic trail mix
Good conversation with Ashley—America and Travel

Feb 2
Breakfast
I only stepped outside for seconds, but it was amazing this morning.
Had great conversations with Lee and Jesse—life experiences and travel; I’m beginning to see more clearly the good in them.
Appreciated Target’s organic foods and sheets; and found a fun, flowy top.

Feb 3
Not a very productive day, but I ate well, mostly organic foods.
Biked 6 miles on the machine (machine, blech but the music was nice)
I also played around with dreadlocks, making, taking out, making, taking out, a dread in my hair. I’m not quite sure that I have it down yet, but I’m considering having one (and maybe, if circumstances have it, a full head in the future; but one is a leap for now)

Feb 4
Organic noodles and red wine
Started on my ‘Kill your Tv’ canvas
Cleaned my room; yes, I actually do have fun cleaning my room. Strange.

Overall: Eaten healthy five days going ! Had a little bit of pizza. But somehow, I’m not really craving the sugary/saturated/fatening foods too much.

I’m constantly having to fight myself when it comes to being happy with me. So this goal might be a little rough at first, but, hopefully, it will become a habit, and I’ll grow toward allowing myself to feel happy.

1-30
I woke up twenty minutes early to sit in bed and listen to music. I ate organic cereal and, later, a really yummy sandwich at school. I sat in the sun for two hours between classes. I had an amazing conversation with a man named Steve (who is blind and inspiring). I had a rough time in classes, but I got through them.