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I am so selfish, I don’t know how to truly love someone, and it’s so sad, because I don’t even truly love myself. My boyfriend loves me with all of his heart, and I believe him, but I can’t think of anyone else but myself!!! HELP ME!!! PLEASE
tam1204's Life List
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1. Feel beautiful everyday
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2. smoke less
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3. find myself
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4. travel the world with someone I love
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5. learn to cook. Really cook.
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6. love my body
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7. learn how to drive stick-shift
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8. read the bible
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9. expect less
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10. make love on a beach
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11. lose my belly
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12. have a family
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13. accept myself
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14. be kind to others
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15. fall asleep outside watching the stars with someone i care about
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16. be cool
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17. dream happy dreams
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18. stay up all night and watch the sunrise
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19. exercise more
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20. be successful
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21. be forgiven
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22. design my own tattoo
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23. feel loved
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24. accept what I cannot change
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25. stop being lazy
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26. Love fearlessly
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27. get into shape
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28. stop wasting time
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29. finish college
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30. To live instead of exist
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31. love and be loved
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32. learn to let go
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33. stop worrying
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34. be happy with myself
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35. be less judgmental
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36. feel like I belong
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37. find out who i am
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38. never have to worry about money
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39. be happy
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40. get my license
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41. work because I like to, not because I have to
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42. be comfortable with my body
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43. Stop being so selfish
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Recent entries
I just realized today 4-19-06 that I am selfish. I sabotage me whole life when things don’t go my way. I break down. I push my boyfriend away and try to kick him out when he says something, or does something that I don’t like. I realize my problem, I just dont know how to change it. I’m going to be starting counseling and seeking professional help, so I am hoping with the help of this website and the counseling, I can change.
i think too much, all the time in fact. i’ve been told i think too much. i cannot willingly go to sleep, i have to be totally exhausted before i do. thoughts are constantly running through my mind whether i want them to or not. i think about ways to improve my life, stupid things ive done, what other people’s reactions where to something, things i shouldn’t have said and so on. I stopped pretty much everything i was doing. i was stressed out, i tried to eliminate anything that stressed me out. the only thing is i fixed the symptoms and not the cause. i dont know what the cause is? i know i am bored with life and i have no goals – goals that i am passionate about. we all want to be independent and financially free and happy but i dont know what it is that will get me there. i have many interests and i can spend hours focused on the activity, but i am also easily bored and need change. change that is just outside my comfort zone and not a million miles away. i do not adjust very well, so something that is predictable and foreseen is more inviting for me. i am still unemployed and i want to make money to move forward. I have given into my bad habits and it keeps me on its reigns. i need to break this cycle, in my mind i know what i am doing is self destructive and sending me backwards. i am very aware of how i think and what i do, that is why i can’t understand why i can’t change.
