teddybeargirl

I knew he was going to screw me over, and he did. I really thought that I could trust him, or at least I hoped that I could. He is theone person who knows me the most, and yet he acted so carelessly. I want to forgive him, but does forgiving mean letting myself completly forget about what happened and let him get close again? Im not sure if I want to do that, why would I let someone back in that has screwed me over? I know he is just human, but really, I am just sick of getting hurt and I know i will always get hurt by people, so maybe I just wont ever let anyone get close to me again, I would never get hurt that wya. yep, thats what Im gonna do… I just hurt so much. why was I so stupid??? I actuallywas wondering if I loved him, now I know that I dont, how could he be so mean??? Guys are confusing, people are confusing!!! I should live on a completly eserted island, no people, no animals, just me and a couple of trees. hehe, that would be perfect!

I was hurt, really hurt by someone that thought I could trust. Someone in a position that people should beable to trust them. obviosly I was let down, terribly. I havent really been able to get to where I was before, emotionally speaking. I stopped trusting basically everyone that is in the same field as this person, wondering if they too would screw me over like the other person did. I now have a very good guy friend who knows what I went through, but he is going into the same field as the “bad” person, and I am really not sure how to deal with that. I really like this guy, and he likes me, but i dont know how to trust him, or other people that I should be able to trust easily.