thegem

right now i have to give up on this goal. if i was still single i could do it but i got married and it seems like its so hard just to make ends meet let alone save money. we are barely making it as it is. this is just a waste of space on my list right now.

this has really been a crazy year. almost anything that could have happened, did happen. i got married, i got an 8-5pm position at my job (which is very hard to do), i got to go to london and paris, got to surprise my dad on his 50th birthday by going to see him in new york, decided the 8-5pm position that i worked hard to get wasn’t what i wanted and got myself disqualified and was under two investigations at work for attendance, had roommates, went back to school, had my car driven into a ditch by my so called friends, and the worst thing of all these inicidences was i started lying to my dad again which i haven’t really done since high school. he bought me the car that my friends (well ex friends) wrecked and i haven’t had the heart to tell him about it. he thinks i’m engaged, not married (that’s a long story) and he doesn’t know that i had roommates which is the real reason me and my husband live in a 3 bedroom that we can barely afford on our own. i hate not telling him the truth but its hard for me because for one, we only talk a couple of times a month and usually i’m caught off guard when he calls and for two, i feel like its really gonna hurt him when i tell him but i have to tell him because he’s coming to visit me in december for christmas and to meet the guy that he thinks is my fiance so when he comes he’ll see that i don’t have the car anymore so i know i’m at least gonna have to tell him about that. the whole married thing i really don’t know if i’ll ever tell him that. i’d rather just act like we’re engaged till we have the american ceremony. life used to be so simple, when did it get so complicated?

sugar cookies and apple cider yummmm
the cool fall crisp breeze
11:01pm