thenewboy

I want a family! to continue after my death….to bring life into this world! Not just creating a child but in turn and with allot of love….starting a chain effect and sending it from child to child into the world!

Twin boys and then a little girl please God/great spirit/Sage/Universe…..whom ever may be managing that department! hehe!

Well what do people see when they look into mine?

I couldnt even tell you what i what want them to see? lol

Spending far to much time wondering about others veiws and opinions of ME is nuts….I know this but still its a hard one to crack! I admire so many other people and know what I feel and think for them! It would just amaze me to really see myself through others eyes…..but then again…..could i really take it? Do i really need this or is it one of those ego things…. I ….. in due course will leave at the door so to speak!

Maybe knowing or feeling the love from others is what i really want far more than seing how they veiw me!

Striving at the moent to acheive a way of being where i can feel these things and will have no need or want to see what they see, a kind of knowing what im putting out into the world is love , light and respect and anything that doesnt feel that or judges me in a negative way, is welcome to keep on walking!...confidence, confidence, confidence….keeps popping up this one for me!.....strange because i portray such a confident figure, when instructing or with freinds etc…..but often inside not feeling like i make out to the world…in fear of what “they may see!” starnge! lol

Even if i did, to what end ?.....would i want to change? Geuss thats why we havent developed these skills of mind reading, coss thats our time our private time! It just amazes me why im so intrigued into what the the world makes of little old me!

Takes me so much time do do things it would seem! lol, I enrolled in the oline course its good! Got my finger alphabet down and 1-10 so im not have amazing convos at the moment! and talking to the mirror allot, people will start to talk if they ever loook through the window at me , must look like a mad mad! lol Going well!, havent got the website to hand other wise i would have addedit here, if anyone wants it let me know! x