thenhbushman

i hurt my back on Tuesday, bringing some investment casting tooling to a new supplier! i am just now getting back to normal! it was a rough couple of days.

the good part is that i didn’t eat so much because i was in pain!

My Hui-chen is a very sensitive woman. i would say, in the extreme. she is afraid of violence and i try my best to shield her from that.

the other day i was working on a very difficult problem on her computer. she kept bothering me about “giving up” on it, and shutting it down. i am not one to give up easily and after several attemps on her part to get me to give up, she asked me to shut it down. i shouted “no!” and i immediately regretted it.

a few minutes later i found her crying. i felt ashamed. to me, the measure of a man is not in his physical strength, but rather in his compassion and capacity for tenderness. sure, i wanted to be tough and masculine, but this situation called for tact and understanding. you see, my Hui-chen is the Love of my Life in my old age; a mature love that cannot be compared with anything remotely associated with some sexual infatuation – i am nothing without her, and i fully admit it. so…. i was wrong. completely wrong.

what i am finding so interesting in this situation, is the effect of this website on my thinking process. its a simple thing, really, to place ones goals and objectives here. but, once entered, they are in the public eye. i have thought about this fact over and over. if anyone doubts the effectivity of publicly stating such things, i invite you to do so yourself.

i am trying to do my best. i love her so much, that i cannot find words in either language to describe how i feel….

Yeah, it felt great. i have been under a lot of stress lately and 15 mins on the TG9K really helped. I need to keep going.