after the rant i have arranged the books im going to read in an order that i think will get them done.
first starting with “He died with a felafel in his hand”
xo
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write a book
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finish my book
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Compile a 100 favorite songs list.
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Get a tattoo
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How I did it: With the help of a councilor, the school one and talking to a select group of friends i managed to get over everything. Gabe is someone i will never forget but someone i do not have any feelings towards whether its love romantically or friendship wise. he is just someone who was in my life once upon a time that did make an impact at the time but now there are to many things going on in my life to let it bring me down what happened. Read how I did it…
after the rant i have arranged the books im going to read in an order that i think will get them done.
first starting with “He died with a felafel in his hand”
xo
getting rid of this goal for a good reason, its only because i have to many goals relating to finishing my book and having this goal isnt helping me go any faster so there is any point in it any more
xo
im finding i need more motivation as usual to keep going with this book. I see new vampire books arising everywhere and it makes me want to stop, its sad though i feel that the over competition of writing a vampire novel is to powerful.
thoughts keep going through my head “it wont be good enough” “its going to be like the others”
its annoying because i have such a want to complete this…
I also have the struggle with writing this as a book or a script. Either way i go with this i have to wait a few years before i can even think about publishing it or putting it into the works because the want for Twilight books and movies is to big at the moment and anything else that comes out at the same time is going to be swept under the carpet. Not that i could finish this book this year or even the end of the next purely because i am that lazy and there is to much to write in such little time.
I want a mentor, someone who will criticize my ideas and help me be a better writer, it seems i have to keep turning back to the imaginary mentors such as John Marsden or Ann Rice and reading their books so i can be inspired…
thats why i have on my bed 7 books i want to complete over the next few weeks so i can use this as motivation. I have one book thats called ‘the writers little helper’ which gives you tips to being a better writer, as lame as it sounds i think i can use a bit of it.
sigh its unfortunate that i cant sit myself down and just write, i suppose with this book in particular or should i say ‘idea of a book’ is all in my head therefore its harder, i have it all visualised in my head – every detail and thats so hard to put down into words sometimes. Purely because some of it that is visualised would be, if in a movie, special effects grrrr.
its all frustrating really.
xox