thorsgirl101

okay so my grandma’s maiden name is McLeod, from the scotts and they were desended from elves so I have elven blood in me. So does that make me an elf or not, how do you become an elf anyway??? if anybody has any answers or can clarify anything it would sure help!

I don’t think I actually have depression but I get really sad at random times, it mostly has to do with time and change, I hate time and change, it so depressing to think that life just goes by and you can’t do anything about it. And that in like 20 years I probably won’t remember any of this and that all the big stuff that makes our lives this way, and that shape who we are will just be little fond memories. Also a lot has happened in the last 3 years that sucks and I don’t have anyone to turn to. My grandpa died (he was the man who shaped my dream and who I am, he was my greatest hero) then my grandma on my mom’s side died (grandpa was on dad’s side) the following year and then last year I was hit by a car which no one wil let me forget, I don’t want to talk to my parents about it because were in a bit of a money crisis, and to my friends I’m the angel who fixes all of there problems, and I do that because I figure that if I ever need help they’ll be there for me but there not! if I ever bring up getting hit by a car with my friend who was there she just reminds me of how stupid I sounded because when we were in the ambulance the i asked the nurse his name and he said it then i told him my own, yes it is stupid i mean of course he knows my name but i wasn’t really thinking at that time! and to constantly remind me of that almost every single week I just can’t take it!!! and then when I got really depressed in school because of my grandpa dying my other friend laughed at me!!!!! but anyway I’m not going to commit suicide because the thought of killing myself hurts more then it would to actually kill myself but I just really needed to get it all down so if you read this thanks for listening.