thrustingdeej

No hangover, feel good. ready to face the day! Ah its good not to worry about money for alcohol tonight… yeh so I relapsed. But im back on the straight and narrow now. Feels good again..

So I drank last night. Dont know why. Maybe part of me wanted to see what I was missing. Nothing it turns out. Felt like crap, feel like crap now. Do I want to feel that way everyday again? hell no! I’m not missing anything. Im not going to beat myself up about it, just carry on as I was before. So onwards and upwards again! This was not easy to admit by the way! But I felt it needed to be noted. Thanks for the support and I hope it contiunues, Dont be too hard on me! Lol

Seems to have gone really fast, If someone had said to me a few months ago I would have been able to stay sober for this long I wouldnt have believed it for a second. It just proves, when you’ve made up your mind, you can achieve anything!
Even in this short space of time, I have lost weight, My skin has cleared up and woop woop my tan is coming back:P

Remember, You will never give up anything, unless you want to.

Waking up in the morning is a pleasure, anyone who is thinking of giving up, Dont think of it as giving up ha! Think of it as being sober, which is the natural state. The joy of living life without alcohol if a million times better than any state of drunkeness! trust me.

I am meeting with an alcohol specialist, and she is amazed at how prepared and how I am dealing with it. You can do anything one you make up your mind! Good luck to anyone just starting out in actually living life.

Thank you and have a great day peeps!

What can I say? Life is good! All the little things that stressed me out so much when I was drinking seem isignificant now, Life just seems so much eaiser to handle. I love it! Heres to sobreity!

Feels great! Bring on 2 weeks!

Again sun is shining, Luckily I have no car so I have to walk to the shops. In response to battendownthehatches I used to drink 3 – 4 litres of white cider a day, So thats 22 – 30 units every day. And in regards to the walking comment, I walk to college which is a 2 mile round trip so I get to do that everyday anyway :D your right it does feel good to get some excercise done! Life is good I tell’s ya! Take care everyone!

Sun is shining, its a beautiful day our in sunny England ha. This is my first sober weekend in years, it feels enlightening, urges do come when I feel bored, but the way i see it is, im going to be bored even if i do drink so whats the point! Going into town now to get some stuff, going to learn to cook something new today ha.

Have a good day everyone! :D

First friday night sober in 5 years! Feeling goooood!

Woke up feeling really good. No hangover ha! Not sure what im going to do today, maybe work out a bit. But Im still feeling good and positive. Its going well, after tomorrow night it will be the longest I havent drank for in 5 years! Woop woop. Take care everyone and have a good day!

Just walked back from College and actually realised what a beautiful day it is out! It feels so empowering not thinking about how much money I have to get alcohol tonight! Just going to chill and listen to some music, even that sounds better and more meaningful now! Feeling good :D people even commenting on me looking better already, even after a few days! Thanks for the comments and support guys :D

Michael Jackson greatest dancer ever! Id love to be able to nail the Moonwalk, It would be amazing as a party trick!

White tigers are my favourtie animal, I would be a little intimidated by a grown up one so I would love to be able to pet some cubs! I’ve seen them on TV and they just look the coolest things ever! I dont know where I would need to go to do this perhaps New Zealand or South Africa as I know they have sanctuaries there. I dont have the money right now but 1 day! Heres to hoping :D

So I had my liver function tested 2 months or so ago. The Doctor told me if I carry on like I have been I highly risk developing cirrhosis of the liver within 2 years and then theres no going back, being only 19 thats a pretty big deal. I took this on board but the time wasnt ready to change, it hadn’t shocked me enough I guess. However I wanted to stop drinking, it was controlling my life. It wasn’t planned but last sunday night I came back from the Pub, had my last drink and decided enough is enough. I had been drinking up to 30 units a day for the last 2 or 3 years! It had a complete grasp on me. Now though for whatever reason I look at alcohol in a completely different light, I used to think I was missing out if I wasnt drinking, now i realise its not the Alcohol im missing out on its living my life to the full, being productive and living up to my potential, which Alcohol has no place in.

Im feeling extremely positive and some of the blogs on here have been so inspiring they have helped me so much to take these first few steps. OK, so its only been 3 days sober, but 3 days to someone who has drank practically everyday for the past 5 years, thats a long time.

I now realise I no longer need Alcohol in my life. Ive already decided to learn how to cook, I am going into town on friday to get some ingredients:P and also pop into some charity shops to see if they need any voulenteers! I have a 4 day weekend from college which I need to fill, so I am looking forward to productive and fun ways to spend it not involving having a glass of booze in my hand!

I hope to here from some of you who are taking on the same challenge as me (altough I dont see it as a challenge, I see it as a path to true life) thanks for reading and hopefully we can help ech other along the way!

Deej