I am starting to realize I am not happy with myself about my present relationship with my boyfriend. I want to leave him and I don`t want to hurt him but he is not the person for me. He has a gambling problem that I am finally admitting to myself. He is too !!! It doesn`t change the fact he`s still a gambler with an addiction. He`s gambled 3 times (that I knew of) and he admitted he has gambled more in the past before and during our relationship. He has been lying to himself but he`s not fooling me… I want OUT!!! I deserve more!!!
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3. accept myself
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6. forgive others
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8. lose some weight
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9. smile at strangers
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10. love myself
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11. do stand-up comedy
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12. get more sleep
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13. make love more often
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14. write a poem
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15. take a vacation
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17. be honest with myself
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18. save some money
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19. get out of debt
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20. dress nicer
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21. get a new hobby
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22. read a life changing book
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23. live in the present
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24. watch more sunrises
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25. watch more sunsets
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26. pray more
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28. journal more
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30. learn photography
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31. play guitar
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32. learn to paint
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34. worry less
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35. Help the homeless
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36. Stop being so critical
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37. Give up control
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38. be happy
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39. keep a gratitude journal
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40. Stop being co-dependent
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41. never settle for anything less than I deserve
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How I did it: I had to get past the " growing pains" of it but its great now. I can wear it in so many different ways and the variety is great. I used deep conditioners on a regular basis to keep it healthy and had regular trims for dead ends. Read how I did it…
How I did it: The hardest was picking out the color. I decided on a deep red (has a touch of rust color in certain light.) I was told deep colors are the hardest to cover so decided to give my landlord a break since he was kind enough to allow me to even paint. I was scared of the cutting in as I hadn`t done that part before but had helped in painting before and used low tack tape to protect the ceilings. The job turned out very good and it … Read how I did it…
Living in the present isn`t always easy but it sure feels alot better then worrying about the future or being haunted by the past. I have to remind myself the past is just that. It can`t be changed … I can`t go back and do it differently. As for the future preparing myself by setting a bit of money away every pay is the only way I can prepare. Other then that I can`t do anything about my tomorrows. I wake each morning and there is that ghost of yesterdays tugging at my thoughts. I bring out the ” ghost busters” thinking and think instead .. NO.. you don`t. This is TODAY and Im gonna live it!!! It`s an on going process and a new way of thinking but its working for today.
I have always said … ” you can`t control others. All you can control is the way you react to them.” Wish I could remember that myself.The more stressed I get the more I try to control what I can`t control. Now I`m trying to control myself instead.

