timeforlisa

I have finally let go. I was afraid to join AA as I did not want to be “brainwashed”. ha….little did I know that is exactly what I needed. After many failed attempts and 25 years of struggle I have finally found the tools to live a sober life. Next week will be 3 months for me…but I am happy just to have today. I wish everyone well and to those who are too stubborn, proud etc to go to AA like I was…please think about it. You just might find what you have been looking for!

Hello all. I am once again “on the wagon”. Third day today. I have been on a roller coaster ever since I broke a 4 month sober streak in April. I learned that it is just as hard to stop after one week as it is to stop after 20 years. So at least I have learned a few things this drunken summer. I have seen the Allen Carr book recommended on this site by a few…The Easy Way to Stop Drinking…am not even all the way through it yet and it makes perfect sense to me. For anyone here looking for yet another view in your struggles…give this book a try. Wish me luck. I feel bound and determined right now to say goodbye to this poison for good!

Well I just blew a 7 day sober streak last night. It sometimes seems that trying my hardest is not good enough. I am feeling down and out today. I would give anything to not have this disease. I refuse to give up but it seems that the more I try and fail the lower my esteem goes. The only thing I have not tried yet is going to AA. I am afraid because I feel I will be “brainwashed” in some way. I don’t necessarily agree with their whole philosophy and have read alot of negative things. I think I feel the need more for fellowship. Does anyone who has been have an opinion?