tinad0503

Everything in my life is in complete chaos,from my weight to relationships, not to even mention the state of the “physical things” in my life. I feel like I have worked to “get it together” for twenty something years and it has just got worse. I obviously do not know what I am doing wrong and I am beginning to feel like this is just the way I will feel my entire life. It overwhelmes me and completely zaps my energy. It frustrates me. It makes me unhappy and depressed. I not certain that if I even ever got it together that I could keep it together. I am so unhappy and depressed right now that I want to end my life. I don’t think I’d ever do that, mainly because I would not want to hurt my family, but I am totally miserable. I wish someone would/could help me get it together. My husband tries but he gets really bossy about it and wants to completely control me. I am an educated, intelligent person. I do not need someone to tell me “what to do”. I need someone to stand side by side with me to help motivate me to get things done. He doesn’t get that and I feel like he doesn’t want to get it. I think he just has a need to control someone because he feels controlled himself. Will I ever find my way out of this hole?