I'm doing 25 things
I miss him terribly today. Again, the sorrow comes in such bizarre waves. I think I am missing him so much today because I found out yesterday that a building for a business he created when I was a teenager is being torn down. It is so crazy that that has made me so sentimental and sad. I have also realized that I can’t empty all of my saddness because I don’t have anyone to really talk to about my grief. I have to help the rest of my family so much with this that I have no one to help me. I really need to figure out someone to talk to…??? I just want to tell someone who knows me…”I miss my dad today.” But I am too guarded…the phone has rung four times today, and each time I thought I would get the courage to tell someone but I didn’t…I think I just don’t want people to know I am sad or maybe I think they will think I am crazy that eight months later I am still missing him so much.
Hope's Life List
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1. I want to figure out how to deal best with the death of my dad.
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2. learn/use a new vocabulary word each week
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3. go to Disney World with my children and husband
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4. Send 20 thank you messages/notes to let people know I appreciate them
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5. Lend Money on Kiva.org
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6. Buy something from QVC
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7. See all of the Academy Award Nominee movies
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8. curse less
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9. Star Gaze this summer
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10. Read more books
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11. Go sailing
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12. go to the Atlantic Ocean this summer and build sand castles without hesistation or worry that I'll get sand all over
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13. Dedicate one day a month to exemplify LIVE, LAUGH, and LOVE DAY
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14. lay in the grass (this summer) and stare at the clouds
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15. to give my husband little love notes and surprises to remind him of my love for him
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16. I want to give my children my undivided attention when I pick them up the first hour (no phone, no e-mail, etc)!
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17. I want to attend book club each month and read the book.
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18. write more thank you notes
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19. list five things I am happy about each day
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20. write in my journal at least four times per month
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21. I want to drink more water each day
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22. stay up until 11:00 p.m. at least three times a month (I like to fall asleep too early.)
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23. pick a theme song for myself
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24. do a 100 acts of kindness in a year
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25. Go to Chicago
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How I did it: I made a decision one day to finally declutter my old address book (old as in 12 years old at least). I bought a cute, simple, cheap new address book from Target. It sat on my kitchen table for two days before I said, "Each day I will go through and update my address book for ten minutes." In the end it took me three days and about an hour's worth of work. Read how I did it…
I lost a little bit of time on my 43 things…just got busy in life…
Five things I am happy about today
1. Made a decision to get all my old but good stuff into a garage sale next week
2. thankful for a friend that is powerwashing my entire deck (hasn’t had any attention in six years); it is starting to look fabulous
3. summer wine tastings…I love tasting little mini-glasses before I buy a glass or bottle – yummy
4. my two little boys who have made the summer interesting and fun
5. sunny days with cool breezes
