tonysgirl3

They say
That beauty
Is in the eye of the beholder
But what if
I’m the beholder
I can plainly see
That beauty is not me.

I don’t have that perfect
Proportional face
The cheek bones
The eyes
The hair
The body
The shape
That girls of beauty have.

It’s said
That beauty
Is in the eye of the beholder
Who believes
That bull
When I can plainly see
that beauty is not me.

I’m sorry I’m not what you want
Sorry I’m not pretty
Sorry I’m not attractive
Or sexy.

I’m sorry I’m not a super model
Sorry I’m so plain
Sorry I don’t entertain
You.

I’m sorry I’m a mistake
Sorry my face is hideous
Sorry I disappoint you
Sorry I suck.

I’m sorry the sex isn’t good enough
Sorry that I can’t make you happy
Sorry that my body’s a piece of shit
I’m sorry I can’t be the girl you want
Sorry I’m so ugly.

I’m sorry I’m me.

Many words remain unspoken
Words I wish I could say
don’t know how they’ll come out
I just don’t want to push you away.

don’t want you to know that I’m afraid
Afraid of the feelings
Afraid of the shame.

I love it when you touch me
It means so much to me
I wonder if it means anything to you.

I want it to mean something to you
I try
I want to be
The one you want to lie beside every night
The one you want to hold tight.

But I’m not sure if that’s how you feel
I don’t know if what you say is real
God I hope it is
God I hope this feeling shows.

I love you
Don’t you know.

I want you to love me too
You say you do.

But I’m not certain you do
The way you act
The way you talk
You make me feel as if
I mean nothing at all
To you.

How do you feel
How do I ask you
Can I expect the truth from you