I’m feeling ultra sensitive lately. I know I am. Kind of raw and a lack on confidence. Although better than a few months ago. Tomorrow. I need to face things with a bit of confidence and I”M nervous. I do realize I fill in my own speculations before even knowing how someelse will react. I am quick to react. I want to be cool and relaxed and not so uptight about it all.
I think it’s a reaction to a person I am working with who I think (see I’[m doing it again) A person I was rubbed wrong with last week when I saw her. I’ve got to encounter her this week. I just want to ignore her. I can just hear (see doing it again) her complaining and blaming me and my program. There is no pleasing this woman. See maybe I need to know please her and just do the job. but she second guesses me. Why this Why that have you done this.
She is an anal detailed person who needs to get all the information once and never forgets it. I am a big picture, loyal , dedicated person who trusts that things work out and that the details will follow. AAAhHHHHH I don’t feel like working with her tomorrow.
I need a better attitude.
At the end of the day, I will be going out and having a nice dinner with a friend who likes me especially my creativeness and openness.
Then the weekend!!
Jul 10, 12:57AM PDT | 0 comments
Ugh. I’m tired but I can’t sleep. I had a diet coke at 3pm today.Yup that’s it. I have to work tomorrow… 8 oclock. I’ve been lying in bed and just waiting to sleep. can’t sleep. it’s too late to take a tylenol Pm. It take it early I’m ok, but too late it messes me up the next mornng. I’m tempted.
Jul 05, 11:52PM PDT | 0 comments
This started out as a detox idea. I was going to all at once. but it’s just too much, so I’m planning on doing one every 21 days or so.
I’ve done great with the animal protein, which was the first step. It’s been almost 4 weeks. I do it dairy and eggs, and we’ll see about that. I’m on to sugar, which is proving to be really hard. I am so addicted to sugar.
I’ve done great with not having desserts like chocolate cake and candy,
I’m having a hard time with it at breakfast. I love scones and muffins with coffee. I have eaten yogurt and I have had those mcd’s sugar free lattes which really are probably sweetened with somethiung worse than sugar.
Strong cravings…. yikes. I did break down today and get an orange juice, which I thought wasn’t too bad, I looked at the label and it had 26grams of sugar!!! I also bought a nut mix with cranberrys and cherries and raisins n it,. I figured. At least it’s not the candy bar that I could eat 10 of.
Not eating meat has helped with my over eating cravings. Junk food cravings. I guess. Although I didn’t take out sugar until this week, I have been cutting back and I don’t think I’ve pigged out on sugar sweets for a few wee..da.. ok , it’s been there. never mind.
I decided I had to keep going on this list, The rest of the things left are alcohol. gluten and caffine. I’m actually not even going to take out alcohol because I rarely drink, so I’ll combine it witht the last one caffeine. I can’t give up coffee for very long. so I’m leaving that until last, or maybe bread. Not sure. I know it’s a good thing. I feel better already.
Jul 02, 02:18PM PDT | 0 comments
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