tothisghost

i’ve been through injury, surgery and graduated college.
time for me to take a difficult but necessary
start towards what i want.
i first need to get a 1st class PFT rating in order to be
shipped off for OCS.

I CAN DO THIS!

i’ve been through injury after injury and graduated.
time for me to take a difficult but necessary
start towards what i want.
i first need to get that rating in order to be
shipped off for OCS.

I CAN DO THIS!

after talking to my friend katepants, a well needed though casual talk,
something clicked in my head. now, i won’t disclose what was said
in detail but what was discussed was my insecurities and how i deal with them.
i’ve been dealing with them incorrectly and by accepting this i can move on.
so tonight after thoroughly working myself out, meditating and thinking about it.
the stuff i’ve thought about, that haunted me, should not be taken as past
events that could be relived. i need to stop dwelling on it so much and stop
reminiscing. yeah, it happened but it’s past and i have to move on.
use it as something to smile about but nothing more. i can pick it up
every now and then but i have to put it back down.
i can’t be stuck in it otherwise i’ll miss out not only on life but the next best thing.
i can’t be scared of new things, though i tell myself i’m not, because
it’s what’s best for me. and, thanks to kate, not matter what i do
i cannot expect a quick fix and a quick solve.
this means quick relationships that i put too much expectations on.
which i had gone into and got burned.

so. thanks kate for the talk aka psychoanalysis.
but also thanks to the others who gave their two cents.
it all catalyzed after tonight.

so, goodbye to that girl.
being content with being single is tough but after this hurdle
it makes it that much easier.