toxicschlonkey

i think im going to stop smoking weed too. i just dont want to smoke anything anymore. smoke smoke smoke…. whats funny is what restarted my quitting engine about a month ago was when i tried salvia. i did it twice, and both times i came out of it with such a clear knowlage of what im doign to myself. i looked at my cigarette and saw it for what it really was, and all i wanted to do was quit. i did try, but then when the drug completely wore off i said screw it. nuff bout that. thats what started me really wanting not only to quit smoking stuff, but also live a good life, and sit up straight in my chair, and get one of those ergonomic things for my hurtin wrists and brush my teeth everyday and shower and do laundry and sleep with a sheet on my mattress and pillowcases and us a laundry basket and a garbage bin and empty my ashtrey instead of it being a constant overflow of butts falling to my floor, covering it in ashes and hundreds of dirty cigarette butts. what was i saying? o ya. it seems impossible for me to do this. i feel like i need to go to rehab, but they encourage you to smoke there and i just wanna live lighter free. i want to get my head into the mode i’ve had it a few times before, where i just try and try and try and feel really good about it. but then what about when those bad feelings and thoughts come? the only place for me to turn to is the internet. i dunno, nuff of this.

i’ve gotten alot better, i made 34 before the rank reset, i shot up to 27 and i just havnt felt like playing. i dont like most of the people on my friends list, i wanna be on a close team.

i probly wont remember the name of this website after this, so if anybody wants to talk about how much it has sucked or how great it could be, send me a request or an email to jeff_duchamps@hotmail.com . i need a friend, i know someone else there does too.