toxoriest

Everyone always tells me what a gifted writer I am. I know I can write well, and I enjoy writing, but I can’t come up with an idea. I want to find an idea with depth-something I can write about on and on. I’m just waiting for such an idea to become apparent to me.

I know that my anxiety is very bad, and that I’ll not likely ever be able to get rid of it completely. I would just like to be able to manage it so that I can start to better my self in other ways. I’d be able to be more extroverted, because I wouldn’t worry about saying “stupid things” and regretting it over and over for the next month. I’d get more sleep, because my insomnia would be better. I could focus more easily on my life. My panic attacks would be not as bad, or at least managable.

During the summer, it’s alright to sleep till noon, but when school starts, it will be like last year and I’ll be falling asleep during my last two classes. I need to get in the habit of waking up earlier. The thing is I also have to get over my insomnia… which I’d have to get over my anxiety. This one will take a while.