truthsayer226

I stopped the snacking on peanut m&m’s. I have healthy snacks like yogurt at work. I have water and fruit juice. I do cardio at least 4 days a week. Sometimes more. I do it as much for my mental health as my physical. I just don’t feel as good on the days I don’t exercise. Something feels missing. Yet I’ve gained 18 pounds since July. I know part of it is that I went on a medication that causes weight gain. Except for my stomach, my legs and arms look trim. I don’t have a double chin. One woman thought I was pregnant so I’ve got to change this cycle somehow. I’m throwing the shirt I was wearing at the time away! LOL The only thing I’m not doing is counting calories for every meal. On line weight watchers was helpful. Maybe I should do them again.

My doctor added a med for OCD yesterday. I’ve been on it before but had to be taken off due to some neurological symptoms last fall. I had been on it about 5 years so I had adjusted to not having the compulsive thoughts. I started having them again around April but couldn’t take anything due to the neuro issues. The neuro issues improved so finally I can go back on it. It’s probably too soon to see real improvement but I swear I felt better today. My thoughts weren’t bouncing around in my brains like a basketball. I feel smoother, calmer. After months of constantly desperately seeking distraction, maybe I can have some peace and feel good again. I swear it’s like having mad itch in my brain.

I’m doing fair at getting trash out but it’s books, gym clothes, shoes that get strung all over the place. Maybe I could try keeping a dirty clothes hamper in the back seat or something. I all ready have a box that is full of books. I just get busy and then all this junk goes all over the place. Or the front seat is full and someone needs to get in. Oops! It all goes into the back seat! Maybe I should try renting a locker at the gym.That would get some stuff out of the car.