trwnbt

being more truthful is hard but it has its perks.
now when i talk to someone about something i don’t have to think so hard about how i say something or how i response…. i don’t feel the need to fix, or back-up anything, and it built all my torn relationships back stronger and better…. its hard though… its so eazy to lie…so eazy..

once im angry, any and everything in my path is destroyed, i yell, scream and overpower, i throw things, because i know im like this so i do my best to meditate, talk it out, etc. but the people close to me make it theyre ultimate goal to anger me till no return and it’s only so much a person can take from people who say they love you. after im angry i go into rage and make it a personal task to ruin the people around me, im so fearful of my anger i stay away from my family.. once im there, i can’t eat or sleep, i can’t fuction at all … now im starting to understand it’s bigger than dissagreeing, i get irritated with stupid stuff and after the person pokes at me enough….. the hulk come’s out

i have an issue with putting other people before me, and because of it i have nothing left for myself. im tired of always being sad and depressed, i don’t have peace of mind.. i don’t wanna be mean but i can’t help everybody and i’m beginning to understand that….. it just hurts cause im so used to putting myself on the back burner, i don’t even know what i like and want in my own life.