i’ve never had a boyfriend. Its not because of me and its because of me at the same time. By this, I mean that I know there have been boys interested in me over the years – so i’m not completely undesirable. But nothing has ever come out of it, due to my social awkwardness and level of fear. maybe i’m not straight. i’m not really sure. but i want to be, because i don’t want to be a lesbian. not at all. (i’m not homophobic, i just don’t want have to deal with all of that stuff, i just want to be “normal”)
anyways… i need to at least work up the guts to try out a boyfriend, see how it feels, whatever.
it would be nice to have a meaningful relationship. ha.

