yea it was Weird, i feel bad for the roach cause the bee flew out the window with it…and i dont know what happened to it..it was kind of like the scene from jeepers creepers when the thing flew away with dary… it was like two years ago.and they actually looked like they were fighting, thy slapped each other around and rolled on the ground… it actually seemed more like the bee was trying to rape the roach 0_o!!. i think thats one of the most craziest things that ive ever witnessed..such small things.
Okay so in the midst of the moment,during a little event at my school….i got mixed up into sum crap…now i have to do a split lol…:( but thts not the problem, its the dancing leading up to it,...the split i can get done, the dancing?? 0_o….......call the ambulance.
well, from 1-2 years ago,i’d never imagine looking like this.I lost like 36lbs :) , i meant to post something about weight loss a while ago but i just started get back on here..anyways. I kinda forgot everything i did, but i remember watching dr.oz,learning how to eat healthy and i learned about the body(tht was the year i was out of school). so i had a lot of free time on my hands.But i first changed the eating choices, then i started tried walking and stop taking the easy way out of things…i cant remember much sorry:(, but last year i started walking instead of taking the bus…i exercised every now and then but Now i try to exercise more frequently and do some yoga..now i’m doing Bikram yoga, everyone should check him out :)...it would be helpful if i posted a before and after…i should probably get to tht. but I wish everyone Much luck on their journey cause it wasn’t all about losing weight & it won’t happen overnight but it will be enlightening and you will be So proud of yourself.
I found somebody that blew my mind away….but they have a girlfriend now.It was such a Strong gut feeling, i was provoked at times to act and such…I mean i live with no regrets bt something about missing my chance still glooms over my head.this entry isn’t the half of it, all the coincedences,all the shit.but tht was in dec 2012, this is 2013 and ive learned. I will just do what i Always do when nothing goes as planned- Just use the time for myself, make myself better than before.wish everybody else luck though.<3
Lately, i’ve just been drawing and painting people off the top of my mind…they all start to begin to have the same features after a while, So i’m looking for some to pose for my pictures…i was just looking for somebody cool & up to it.Idk if i want it in person cause i dont want them to stand still for a long time but i can draw from pictures… All i really is a high spirited,positive person…whether its a man or woman…but i haven’t drawn a man in how long?? so if your a man then good. I’m a decent doodler, i’d be happy to show you my art.but until then i will Wait for my muse…....waiting
well now that im in the phase, i am trying to maintain it
portion control,making sure i exercise or am active 2 days out of the week…exercising used to be tough for me to start but now that ive started i push myself to do it because i know i’ll be satisfied witht he progress later lol…wish you all luck
Tips/Advice:if ur going to cheat ,each something healthy to match it…but try to resist though.you don’t need a gym, home workouts are cool too just substitute things for the weights or just do some yoga.
you probably won’t see progress a.s.a.p but watch in a couple of weeks, you’ll be one jean size down. _ i hope.
well i am getting out a bit more but i keep almost getting hit by cars
which can really damage the likeliness of finishing this goal lol
seriously though, i just feel stupid when i almost get hit by a car cause it feels like my fault.but i just have to be careful and stop running across the street.
I’m not sure if i want to be a “great painter” anymore
although i seem to be Very good at art i don’t think
this is something i love or would pursue.so as far as
i’m concerned i am finished with this goal.
Oh, i feel emotions alright… i feel miserable,sad,LONELY, depressed,empty & a bit hopeless.well not all the time but maybe a day or two out of each week.My time to relax is over i guess but i should’ve enjoyed it while it lasted (right?).I’m actually angry at
myself for wasting time on this thing that was due & when i heard the disappointing,frustration comments(like someone expected more) i knew failure took the bait laziness left :(
anyways as for the other emotions, they’re only (sadly) temporary
i can’t stay happy for ever no matter how much i want but i can make that last for a bit.
well, if ‘jeans & a pink’ shirt count then I’ve been more feminine
i like wearing comfortable loose and cozy stuff, black stuff, and mostly wristbands. Also i wore my hair down ( and even more shocking i wore it curly??).
i really can’t stand my own art (at the moment)
i dont have much time to say whats really on my mind
but …...I feel like im running on E. “empty” i dont
have any creative ideas, i just draw people and at the
moment im not good at that. i am also kinda stressed by
that and my lack of time, or time ive wasted so…i dont
know, and im tired of people knowing me by art…sighs
oh well--gotta go—- if you feel the same dont hesitate
to post :P
well exactly right now my sister in the bathroom…she has been in there for an hour or something..a couple hours earlier i heard loud sniffing from the bathroom ( the kind like when you cry. then about 5 mins ago i knocked on the door to go to the bathroom. well let me tell you she made a meal earlier…and i looked at her, she looked deeply sad and gray/pale. k back to what i was saying…so when she went out she i quickly checked the trash bin in there to see if it was tissues (maybe she was crying over the cat we all loved which passed away or her being lonely) but i saw a few i used the bathroom and when i came back out she was on this site and exited it ands looked at a drawing i did on this website( she had used another tab to search her stuff up.so then she walks in the bathroom i say “hey..what r u doing youve been in their for like a hour” and she plays her usual self and jokes like “shutup” and goes back in. Im kinda savy with the computer so as soon as she went in i went to the closed tab thing and saw ;any tips for a beginner, bulemia; its a bit shocking cause i never thought she’d get that insecure or whatever feeling is taking her away. then i went on the search history and saw things i Know she typed and search for…she must have did it when i was sleeping. i saw things like insecurity eating alive…insecure..self mutilation..something about a diet… but now that i got an idea iDK how to talk/confront her about it cause it seems like she’s in the early stage of this starvation.she is older than me but seems to be very insecure and thinks some people lie when they compliment her. i just dont know what to do and i dont want to tell my mom cause its a bit embarrasing…u have to see my mom to know why i cant do that.plus she is already stressed out.if u can offer help..please dont hesitate!
sadly at the moment, im just too tired and exhausted with “ART”
i pick up a pen or pencil or brush and i just don’t know what to do
and if i do something its the same thing ive always been doing.
i dont want to waste talent but its boring now.its harder than usual
I’ve had some serious changes in my life these last couple of months
but thats good, cause my life will be brand new, but come to think of
it i..i’m starting to not know who i am..? mama is that you…oh lordy
no just kidding. i have made changes but its going pretty good lol.i have a better life style,developed more morals and have been myself
and not tweeked out so i’m getting to be the best of me..
I dont know how much time i waste,but its too much…i have A LOT of free time, and i just dont know what to do with it.solution
i just got on the computer and looked up productive things to do when your bored, you can look up fun things to do too. lol
but i found some good stuff that will Hopefully keep me occupied on those dull days
i have the most random ways…i looked up a while ago college majors/careers list.and just looked through what it was and the description
and wrote those jobs down(only the ones i liked) ..i did this cause i really didn’t know what i wanted to do, but i know it had to be something artistic,something i could do for years or forever-that i love, and good environment.
