twinklenose

and hope she is well~

xoxo

i am starting by reading other posts here.

i agree that is is BS to say i have to wait until i lose weight or get in shape. blah blah blah! i think it is just an easy out to say that.

yes i want to lose weight and get in shape but i don’t have to wait for those things to be more confident and comfortable with myself.

deleted ‘em!

i wasn’t born in 1952! why is that one of my tags? some of them are quite crude.

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alright. i am back on the saddle.

today is day one. i feel strong!

check out this site for master cleanse support and info. really great forum.

http://www.mastercleanser.com/forum/index.php

best of luck to all!

twinkle~

it took just one day and was pretty straight forward. i went through the red cross. i did miss a couple of questions, one because i just totally marked the wrong box. doh!

twinkle

then i ate….

but i am gonna go for it again.

it’s weird because i wasn’t all that hungry, i just missed food. but i have to realize that i am not giving up food forever.

one day at a time baby!

~twinkle

i dropped out of sight for quite a long time myself but she was the best thing about 43things!

i miss you red!

your friend

twinklenose

well things seem a bit better. if only i could get out of my own BS. why do some become their own worst enemy? gee, can i really be that bad of a person? i don’t think so. yet…

i want to be a boot strap type person. how do they do it? what is their little secret?

i think it is internal. something in the brain. a sense of being worthy.

am i worthy? well of course i am. now i need to act on that!

xoxo

twinkle

than i want to quit smoking.

i want to be a non-smoker. i am a non-smoker.

i feel like the poster below. it doesn’t fit with my lifestyle, or at least the lifestyle i picture for myself. i enjoy running but can feel it terribly in my lungs. i hate that people know i smoke without even seeing me smoke because i smell. ugh!!

smoking isn’t cool anymore. once upon a time i thought it was. that’s how they get you. but anymore, smoking makes you an outcast. gee, i already have enough going against me.

whatafeeling, i hope that you were able to conquer the smokes!!

xoxo

twinkle

do you find that you have the energy to exercise during this cleanse? like running?

thanks

twinkle

rather crying. adversity is kicking my ass. i just want to check out. i think we all got snowed into believeing that life is this really great thing. yeah, maybe when you are 5.
fuck i hate feeling like this.
where is the good in life?

sounds like bullshit to me. i have been tryig to ‘manage’ my depression for a year and a half. yet here i sit wanting to die. depression has beat me.

adversity, you’re a effing jerk!!!!!

i have been gettingout and walk/running five out of the past seven days. happy about that! going out tomorrow.

it’s amazing how much better i feel when i workout!

yay for me!

why does it feel so hard to let go. why do i hold on to people and past memories?
what could have been, what should have been…
i find it hard to let go of anything, especially past loves. what went wrong? what should/could have been different?

i heard a song tonight that brought back memories and i am just letting it get to me. i’ll get over it…

i have been out of the running thing for sometime now. but the past week i have done the walk/run thing 4 days and i am going again tomorrow. it feel so good to move my bod!

funny how something that makes me feel so good can be so hard to make myself do. but once i do….....LOVE IT!

okay, i have been out and exercising. i have went walk/running 4x in the past 6 days. geez, that is more then i have done in the past two months combined.

yay for me!!!!

going again tomorrow….oh yeah!

you can’t even think of a reason to get out of bed. or shower. or breathe.

it’s strange because i don’t do this to other people, just to myself. why is that?