twistedpixie

I think I’m getting closer to this. I don’t cry as much and when I do, I won’t let it get to a point where I’m beating myself up or being destructive. I’m realizing more and more the importance of taking care of my body for the long-term. Part of doing that is to not dwell on negativity or negative emotions.

I’ve determined that this is the foundation for everything I want to change about myself. If I can learn how to do this, I will be a better listener, won’t have as much anxiety, won’t feel the need to be defensive. I just took a huge breath thinking that I may have found the key to everything. JUST SLOW DOWN!!!

and realized I am so in love with this man, yet I’ve gotten into a rut and started taking him for granted. I’ve let the negative emotions and stress in my life take over and gotten too “busy” to do all of the sweet girlfriend things I used to do. That compiled with all of the other things I’m working at changing, is driving us further apart. Today I am going really show him that I love him in every way. After 5 years in a relationship, living together, and vowing to spend the rest of our lives together, I’ve forgotten to go back to the foundation of where we started. I’m going to go lay down, wrap my arms around him and never let go. Well, until it’s time for him to work, but you know what I mean.