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I am not really wiccan, norse, greek, egyptian, druid, sumerian, etc. I don’t feel like I really have a labeled shelf to put myself on. I feel that anything I try to do, that someone has more claim to it then myself. I cannot do Tarot, because those around me do it better. I cannot do runes, because the norseman have a stronger bond to them. I cannot to sacred geometry, because a friend does that and that’s her thing. I feel like I am in a D&D party when every class is taken, it’s hard to feel useful or unique. It’s funny, didn’t most pagans these days convert because they didn’t want to need stupid labels to feel spiritual?

It’s still tough though. I feel that if I had a had a specialty then I would be more useful to the group dynamic. My GF is a wiccan who is really good at divination, one of my best friends is really good with improvised energy work, my Norse connections are better with runes than will ever be. They fit into the picture easier. I sometimes feel like a puzzle piece made from the same company but made for another puzzle that was accidentally placed in the box.

Nothing too destructive, no people, homes, property, etc. It can be as simple as taking an action figure and write something on it with a sharpy and then take a few m80’s to it.

I have been moodier than a 14 year old this week. Depressed, Manic, Happy, Sad, Confident, Self Loathing. Bah I am pathetic at times.