I have an early morning tomorrow (which actually will give me time to check in again before today is over in other parts of the world) so I am going to bed now. I am hoping for more days here, but I am very grateful for what we got. It does feel like stolen time.
To all of you still out there: have a happy Sunday afternoon/evening/Monday morning (I am hoping I am getting all the time zones here …). See you tomorrow!
Well. Here I sit, it is evening where I am. THE eve of, so to speak. For the fun of it, I googled “celebrate in the old style” and this is one of the pictures I got. I will be going to bed with this in my mind, a little sad that a GREAT party has to end. But I know that we will meet again at a different party. And since different is always only different and never worse, I will be happy with that. I am raising my glass with all of you out there! See you on the other side (site!?).
And now on to the hard part. This will be one of my very last entries, though I will be around until the very end to celebrate some more.
I have been thinking about what this site means to me a lot over the last months, ever since we heard about it closing down. Reading about how sad a lot of you are and feeling how sad I am is a pretty good indicator what this site means to me. I had a different account before this one and I am guessing I have been around here for about seven years or so. This might have been an on-again-off-again kind of relationship, but we always found our way back to one another. I was on here most when I was feeling happy and healthy, though also the other parts made it on here one way or another as well. I have completed a small number of goals, the most life changing one definitely being my walk to Santiago. I have figured out what the hell I wanted to do with the rest of my life. I have posted my favorite 43 pictures of Falun, Sweden. I have become a vegetarian and gotten another tattoo (and another). I knit socks for my dad and celebrated some birthdays with you guys. I sent some cards out to some of you for the holidays last year. And throughout accomplishing those things, I alway had a space to think out loud and wonder and question.
Of my unfinished goals, some stand out to me. Stop letting guys determine my happiness – in some ways I am falling short with this. But I am not striving for perfect, just for good. And love is part of happiness. I can live with that. I will probably never truly achieve this, but it is a good reminder to see it on my list. Find at least one thing each day that made me happy … I have never managed to do it every day, but I am so much more aware today than I was then. I am grateful every single day.
Many of you have said this before, but bare with me when I say it again: the people. I am celebrating all of you. And all of the ones that aren’t here with us anymore, for whatever reason. I have never been the most active commenter, but the big and small stories of your lives have touched and inspired me. Seeing so many kind-hearted, gentle and driven people makes me believe that the world is a good place. So here’s to all of you and your loved ones. I know, a lot of us are going to eventually find our way to popclogs or the refugee or facebook, but it still seems a good occasion to say thank you also to you. When I wrote out my thank you to the Robots earlier today, I did really mean it. Then again, all of you are the ones that made 43things what is is, at least to me. They gave us the space, but we filled it. And I think we did good.